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Friday, November 20, 2009

20 November 2009

Happy Bithday To Myself

Well, just to blog to say that. Lolz..

Got some call and wishes from friends in FaceBook and Sms-es as well.

End..

Sunday, November 08, 2009

8 November 2009

It's November le

On 3rd November 2009, Zhi Wei suddenly Msn me... Asking me what happened. So began to tell him what happened. And he asked whether want go out as i mention that he is the one that was back out to meet up. And so that's the first time we meets up. Meet at Jurong Point walk around and say more about what had happened to me or around me. And dinner lo...

Birthday coming soon le... In September, still thought that this year birthday got people to celebrates with me.. It's been over 6years since i wishes to go for a Star Curise. But i had never taken a boat/ship before.

It will be One Month soon in 12days. 20th November, exact my birthday never get to see Joseph le. Dam sad because it's my birthday -.- I been trying hard not to think of you. But whenever im too free or bored, i suddenly will think of what are you doing or what will you be doing now. Helping friends out at their shops or playing Dynasty Warrior 6 with sis or playing Fifa 10 with friends. Had never sms-ed you for so long. Even sms, also not sure what to send you. You will not reply me as well.. Claiming that you either forget reply or busy until forgets. Well, it's just actually you changed the way you treats me nia. Really wish we can get back to normal.

About 8 weeks more to Year 2010. About 2 months more you will be going for studies, which is i get to know on 31th October only. About 3 months more you will be returning to Taiwan. Seriously, i hope i can send you off at the airport when the day you had to depart.

Hopefully, in Year 2010, will be a great Year to be. Hope im able to travel overseas as well. Hope you will be contacting me back like normal friends at least. Please stay healthy.

Currently, i really don't know what i should do. I tried to stay at my current job. Wondering whether i should continue working over at Just Acia during weekends to earn more money.. To cover the expenses on travel... Whether i should stay in BCS for long term not, im so uncertain of it. But they do wish to get perm staff.. But the paid is actually quite low. Hais, just that it's at Toa Payoh.. and still had to spend about an hour to reach there.

Im quite tired of working or life le... Somehow really wished might as well get married off. And be "Tai Tai" at home, sometimes go out work part-time nia. But i guess my life is just full of hardship ba.. Feel like changing my name leh. Just the centre letter to another word but still "min" as i found one nice de letter which i quite likes it as well.. Maybe find one day got some money le, go find Yun Long Zhi? hahha

SE Satio is out.. Should i wait til Chinese New Year etc time then get the handphone? Feel like getting W995 as well. Hais... It will cost a bomb.. Or i should wait til Feb i guess, the month which my contact 1year le?

There's two things that always kills, which is L.O.V.E and MONEY... Both actually can consider is killing me. As i work very hard to earn some MONEY and hurt by L.O.V.E deeply once.

No matter what happens, i still want to tell you. I'll always by your side when you needs me. I'll never leaves you even if you ignores me. I'll will stand by your side no matter what happens. You will always be the only one in my heart.

Life is getting more and more boring for me i guess. Maybe because of my current job ba. Not like my old job can talk around, gossip, listen to aunties talk craps + gossip and laugh around the shop. Really don't know what kind of job suits me. I do wish that i can go for futher studies, just to get a diploma, so i can get a job easier and paid will be better. But my heart really not into studies and now also got finance problems. And i still really can't get which courses i wants.

I thought of Business studies, Joseph had recommended Tourism Studies before. But i sometimes also somehow wants to take Early Childhood courses. But i just don't really like kids... But i do quite like this course. As a teacher of kindergarden. Or even teaches Pri 1, Pri 2 kids. Due to my lazy eyes, i take this course also will suffer ba...

Whether true L.O.V.E exist or not, im not sure. As i had never believed in it that much.. But i do quite believed in fate. For now, all i had to do is pray that everything will be fine for me. I do have some evil thought running thru my mind. As for what i mostly guesses is right. Somehow i wish that this time my guesses is right too. Or i should believe it will.

Yesterday, 7th November. Had a chat with SingWee and she talk to me about christian things. Today, a lady and a guy knocked my house door at 12plus. They talk to me about christian things as well. And told me Jesus's father name, which is GOD. But i had totally forgot the name of GOD and their names too.. Wondering whether they knocked on other doors as well as they says they go to all houses. I stand at the window looking down at 2-6th storey for sometime.. Never see them. Maybe i listened and they thinks mission accompolish. No need continue le hahaha... Or GOD is hinting me i should convert to Christian. As i do thought of this. Just lazy to attend to church.. As it's so far away from my house....

On the 6th November, 2038hrs, Yang Wen became father! Grats to him. Should be a baby boy ^.^

In Year 2010, i hope you would get hurts. No! Better don't get yourself got hurt. When you're been hurt, i will feel the pain as well.

Sometimes, i may says that i don't care. But actually im not sure why sometimes the things i do is actually showing that i cares. I hope i can change. Change to a kind that dare to say all kinds of things out which i don't like, or like. Dare to say the things out i wish to say or i want to say from my heart.

I want to tries to change my lifestyle. Sleeping time, grooming, dressing. Almost everything. But i still cant deny that im a LAZY bum.. All i change for now is my sleeping time. But i still unable to sleep straight from 10-11pm til next morning. Hais...

If i can, i wish my lazy eyes is cured, i wish i got a better complex(both body and face). Hais....

Mr.Right ah Mr.Right, is he my Mr.Right? My heart is telling me YES.

Really wish to go back to the past or just turn the time back to where i had make a mistake or back to where i should had make this not a mistake. Now all i had to do i wait. Wait for the day the mistake will be not a mistake at all. It's just a path i had to go thru. or We had to go thru.

Tomorrow is Monday... Will OT.. Confirm until 6plus again. What things should i standby at there to bite while OT? Tibits? Bread?.. Mineral Water is a must. One day at least 300-600ml Plain water is it enough for daily, Joseph?

Lunch should be eating bread as well~ Til now i still unable to get back old appetite. Maybe because of my change at work also ba. Eat too full want to sleep. Just full or not hungry ok le ba. Disgest quite slow also. Not like at Just Acia keep run around like doing workout at the counter. Hahaha. BCS walk abit or stand awhile nia. Mainly sit on office chairs.. Wonder whether i will stay in this job for years.. Im actually don't really like the job duties i had to do.. Keep forget to check one of the items.. Dates, Post Dated, Payee, Signature, Word & Figure, Code, Amount tally not. Surely i will get at least 2-3 mistake.

Just what's wrong with me. End work le will be so lazy to go anywhere. How do those ladies end work le still can go play around til late night? If im working at 12pm at Just Acia, i can do so. But at BCS, 830 OR 9AM work til at least 315 or 345PM. Napping time. Sleepy -.- Keep yawn.

Oh ya.. Saw 6 coming soon~ Chipmunks 2 & Paranormal Activity(Horror) looks nice~ If this movies out in September good le.. Can watch with you. Well, next time hope got chance to catch a show with you ^.^

It's about time to sleep. 930PM soon. Not sleepy yet. Hais.

Oh ya. Yesterday, went to NTUC with dad. After getting some items we need, he asked me whether there's anythings i want to get. I say no but he telling me go see. So walk around, and saw TRONKY! Last time can be found only in 7-eleven. After that hard to find le. Then saw oppsite house that QC market got sell individual de, Sometimes go over will get. But now NTUC sells it, so happy. And buy 2 boxes got offer xD so i got 2 Boxes. Yesterday i ate 4 sticks -.- today ate 2. 1 box finished.. Haha.

And i wanted to look for Moisturiser, so walk around that facial foam area. Got 1 promoter there asked me what i'm searching for so i told her lo. And listen to her promote. She promotes me follow me items. Under offer. Actually don't like this brand la. haha But the smell is nice. She all the way promote that, then end up getting a Moistursier, Toner, Sunblock and Refine. Total about $55. Free me a small Cleanzier and a small bag ^.^v She actually recommended another product which costs $39, quite expensive for me so i never gets it. Saw SilkPro items actually on promotions also de. But aiya never ba... Guess all this can last at least 3-4months ba =p Hope it changes my complex. Total bill : $111.00 hahaha

Everyday at BCS open envelope etc, think is cause my hands to dry up and cause of aircon ba. Need start to use lotions le ba.. Or hand cream. Maybe i should start to learn some makeup during im out for shopping in future? And dressup.

Yea.. Part of the reason i will want to do so much change is all because of you as well. Maybe is i want you to regret? Or maybe it's time for a change on me. At least abit ba. Very fast i will be back to the normal lazy self. hahahahaha

Really wish time goes faster. Til the day i can retired or just relax more. Not like now had to work and work to paid insurance as my savings. >.<

Mummy! Where is the Law Firm that can claim the left over Will of yours that i should get last year? I really do remember that when im 18 i get some and the paper write it's only certain % of what you left over. During ah ma's funeral, dad mention got how much as well le. So i never remember wrongly. Hope your this Will can help me solve all problems.

Such a long post that's not consider venting this time. Just bored and thought of writing it as well. Don't know when will be the next time blogging le. Everytime not pictures. Except Michelle willing to read, i doubt there's another person le. Maybe sis will, to check out any news over here ba. bleh