♥Only Me♥

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I wish...

This sunday, suppose is go find you.. Now all hope shatters. I wished to hug you and say some heart felt words de... And something else..

Maybe i just say here le...

(If i'm hugging you, i want to say this is the first time i really hugs you, you can bring me peace)

Joseph.. this is the very first time i called your name out.. And i will call you this from the very next time i see you le. Only will use Joe when needs to use shortcuts... Bleh..

Joseph.. Sorry and i loved you once..

Joseph.. Sorry to makes you suffer that stuck inbetween..

Joseph.. Sorry for what i ever says makes you angry and frowned..

Joseph.. Sorry for everything i had did..

Joseph.. I really wish everything can go back to the start..

Joseph.. Sorry for not listen to your true heart feel.

Joseph.. Sorry to force you..

Joseph.. Sorry that i had never be honest to myself to tell you my truth words...

Joseph.. Sorry that i'm unable to send you the message in my heart and i'm unable to receives yours.

Joseph.. Sorry.. Really sorry. I really wished to go up your house this sunday de.. Got things i wished to ask from you from the very first and only time.. But no more can say it le..

Joseph.. Sorry.. At this point i know i can't 'truely' bless you. But i really wish you are happy and blessed.

Joseph... If you would had says you would't want to take back the money maybe i will had listen to it. Just that it's scorpio's habit.. Don't like/wish to owe anything ba. Not say i want to make things so bad/worst de.

Joseph... Maybe certain things should say out never say but if you never say out of course i will also not saying out..

Joseph... Why didn't you speak your true heart earlier to me.. You say it out when i'm very sad about the funernal and when i had sunk into deep water of yours.

Joseph.. Even now that i now your MSN puts "happily attached" is to show it to me but i still can't get over it so fast lah..

Joseph.. Ai wu ji wu and Ai is a different things... You should know it de. But i'm telling you that i really likes you alot. I don't know why. But i really like. No matter you're sad, happy, down i also wish i can share the bundle/joy.

Joseph... If you don't want to care about me le, you should not had say you still wan be friends and the concern/care for me will still be the same. And yet you don't want to reply me le. You know how sad it is?

Jospeh... I really thinks that you're the one for me. Thus, i say i will wait no matter how long it takes. The words still counted til now but 3years later leh? Maybe still will ba? Or maybe not.

Joseph.. I still wanna says this before de.. If 3years later.. We both not married to anyone yet. Will we get married?

(Ya.. In my dream...)

If only i can turn the time back... I wish i had never remembered who are you, perhaps...

If i can choose, i wish i can die now.

Well, actually from the very first day you bring her to your house can guess abit de la. . . Just i want to trust you. Hais. Now then tell me all the 'truth' i think even more ba? How to get back to my life/concentrate on my work?

Really don't know how long then will get back to my track le..

I also don't get it why when you both if know the truth le, still want hides it. Hais. If only say earlier, confirm earlier i will not be like what i'm now le ba?